So here's a question:
If the day was destined to be a disaster, is mere survival a triumph?
But is it not a defeat to have certain days destined for disaster?
Yet this destiny was not pre-ordained. Around mid-morning I realized that for a good chunk of the day, I was most likely to be pointlessly, hopelessly sad. For no reason, except it is my nature, well, but then again, that is a nature I decided long ago to defy, by any means necessary, including...
Well, if I did take the meds, would this day be so different? There were other reasons why my day might be awful, but comparing, and weighing in how I have been dealing with things other days and...
But really, I suppose my confidence in how I have been dealing with things otherwise likely brought me to be a little lackluster in checking to make sure I had a good supply and...
Aw, let's just play the song
And as is proper the lyrics.
I gotta love the Eraserhead callout, just reminds me how much I need to see that film.
Anyways, obviously, this is a good lesson to be more careful, and given the overall lack of urgency in the day, probably an overall good occasion in the longer sense of things.
Yet still, being reminded of your biological limitations, that's never a pleasant thing. But some are born such as to demonstrate the glory of God.
And then again, perhaps all measured I'm not overall even that cursed even from the bio perspective. It's hard to measure apples vs. oranges, and there's at least that distance between each fellow man, and so it's hard to say the measure of difficulty of natural traits, still overall I'm doing okay, so...
So it's not really so bad, just need to be careful to take my meds.
So take it to your head, take it to your heart and remember Rand rocks. Goodnight Folks!
And God Bless.
6 months ago